I am quite afraid to share stories of my personal life, it is like a showbiz writers who love to write about other celebs yet they are afraid and keen on protecting their personal life and family. But sometimes I have to share some tidbits of it, nothings going to happened wrong if I may do it.
I keep it to myself not to share my family background. I lied to most of the people if they would asked me about my family. Well, you can't blame me for that. My family aren't celebrity or somebody who has high profile status, but as for me I don't feel like reiterating this and that.
Admittedly, I love my father half way empty. Yes, you heard it right, maybe the hatred is eating me whole. I can't take it abruptly, and just
Growing up as a person and dealing with different personalities, I have seen myself striving to overcome the fear of rejection, resisting on negative thoughts and on how to control my emotions towards others. I felt that some people are trying to get rid of me, I can't blame them cause I know for a fact that I have this tickly attitude. I reacted on things badly. Sometimes, I screwed up with little things that if only I did think twice before doing such I may found solution that would pave the way of letting the morbid stuff from happening.
Maturity happened by nature and not by force. I may not be able to correct the mistakes I had done from the past, but I can be able to make something better in the present and in the future to come. As I grow up in age and in maturity I slowly transitioned myself from being abrasive to a keen observant and a relater of things. I thank God for His love and care. His blessings everyday made me alive and graceful!
I am grateful that life gives me reason to mourn, for life has also given reason to smile.