I used to labelled  myself as a "loser". Ain't no good in anything that i have been doing, no growth happened. Cnce I write, I wrote stupidity and grammatically wrong. Something that I had struggled to take it off from my system. It seems that those negative thoughts and such discrimination that I had been through affected me on moving and changing the route of my life.

All my life, I had been dreaming of becoming a successful writer, photographer and an established young professional. I envied others, why? They had so much in life, studies and love. With these aspects in life, I am unlucky and vehemently beaten.

Growing up from a family of "short minded ones" I never heard any dreams and plans on changing the status of our family. Satisfied with 3 times a day course a hand to mouth genre. Every one got  vivid picture of what is life out there, and how would our lives changed if we would choose to. I never blamed my parents why these things happened, they too never dreamt of letting us suffered the direness of a chaotic life we were in.


Everything has its purpose, either you  learned from it or brag about it. What happened to us as a family was a memory of doom yet sparkly life. Doom since we never dreamt of facing it at a very young age. Sparkly cause I had learned to appreciate what is life and I grew up maturely, in money, dealing with every situations and loving myself more than enough.

To received LOVE we should nourished ourselves  with: 

• self respect
• learn to appreciate the growth that you are in.
• to be able to handle situations that heavy.
• developed your self esteem to interact and share knowledge.
• Inspire others to do something "good" for themselves.
• Share good thoughts- share your smile.
• Be grateful of other'people's achievement, and learned from them.
• Think positive.
• Strive to do good every day. 
• Read books that are uplifting and has good moral lessons to grasp.
• Be humble.
• Don't deprive yourself on doing the things that you wanted to do, feed your fetish.
• Have sex at least twice a month. Use protection!
• Hit the gym, and have other way on making your body fit.
• Be an asset not a liability.
• Be faithful to yourself and to others as well eg: gf/bf/best friend..
• Love your parents and forgive them for the lack.
• Give chance to others. 
• Read the bible everyday
• Be faithful to GOD!